Flying first-class in coach

I am a woman of a certain age, age uncertain. Probably at least forty, and not more than two hundred. And I have launched a new career as a character. This is actually Dan’s fault. I mean, how many husbands do you know that would take their wives with them across the continent to San Francisco and then accept an upgrade to first class, leaving their wives in coach?
This turns out to be one of those glorious flights where the coach cabin is half empty. When the seatbelt light goes out, I upgrade myself to a row of seats all to myself. Along with two sets of pillows and blankets. The only problem is that my new row doesn’t have electricity. So I make the acquaintance of the nice young computerless man in the seat behind me, who kindly agrees to allow me to pirate electricity from his socket. All set, I snuggle myself against the window with legs outstretched and my computer in my lap.
The flight attendant comes by with drinks, and I buy a bottle of chardonnay. Arthritis strikes. With my weak fingers, I can’t open the bottle, and he has to do it for me. The chardonnay is undrinkably sweet. When the flight attendant comes by again, I apologetically ask if I could exchange it for something else even though I’ve already opened it. He agrees readily, brings out a bottle of shiraz with a flourish, and twists it open for me. Sweet! (The flight attendant, not the wine.)
But I let down my guard and sit upright while looking through the magazine. A young man asks if he could use the aisle seat to watch the movie, since the sound isn’t working at his seat. “Of course,” I say, wondering at my own magnanimity. “Are you sure?” he asks, hesitant to disrupt a woman of a certain age. Ah, young men. They are just so cute. “Yes, absolutely, I insist.”
The movie, it turns out, is made from a book that I have just borrowed on CD from the library and intend to listen to next on my list. He has read it. He loved it. I’m really happy to hear this. We settle in, he to his movie, I to my computer.
I receive a guilty visit from my first-class husband. I assure him I’m very happy here, and it’s true. My poor aisle-mate offers to move, but I insist he stay. Who is this person inhabiting my body?
Later, I go to the back of the plane to ask my flight attendant if I would be allowed to visit my husband up in first class, and he assures me that I may. So, hey, I do. Seeing me pass by, my aisle-mate starts to get up, but I wave him back to his seat and head up to the front of the plane. There I chat with Dan and his colleague. First is full. They had a big meal, but we had already eaten dinner at the airport. Who needs another meal? As I stand and chat, the first-class flight attendant comes by with chocolates. Dan and his colleague offer me theirs, and I accept. I can tell I have psychic power over them. I ask Dan for his bottle of water as well, and he gives it to me.
Life is good. As I pass down the aisle, my aisle-mate starts to stand, but I wave him back to his seat as I walk to the back of the plane. My flight attendant is reading a magazine. I ask if I might have another bottle of Shiraz, but apologetically, as he’ll have to come back to my seat with me, where I’ve left all my money. “Don’t worry,” he tells me, and hands me a bottle of wine. This is what happens when you have what just could be the world’s nicest flight attendant who also knows that your husband is traveling first class while you’re back here in steerage.
I go back to my seat. I give away my first-class chocolates to my movie-watching aisle-mate and my electricity pusher. I drink the wine. The movie ends and I get my row back. I stretch out. Life is getting better all the time. I don’t think I’ve had a better flight since I figured out how to get the Transpacific first-class upgrade from Los Angeles to Sydney and back again on Qantas—and that was maybe fourteen years ago, when I had just turned twenty-one.
It’s almost midnight, and my wonderful flight attendant has just brought me another free bottle of wine. Back here in steerage, we know how to live. They can’t possibly be having this fine a time in first class. There’s something to be said for style.
Postscript: Dan has come by with a chocolate-chip cookie, still warm from the first-class ovens (the cookie, not Dan). The flight attendant has come by with yet another free bottle of wine. I’ve assured Dan that if I got any luckier I’d win the lottery even without a ticket. I don’t want him to feel guilty, for heaven’s sake. Life is way too good for that!

The Jerk

We’re on St. Thomas, US Virgin Islands. All the islanders we have met have been extraordinarily friendly: Life in the Caribbean just as we imagine it.

Dan has mastered the art of driving on the left side of the road with a right-side-drive car but the roads are a shambles. Sometimes a bit worse than that. On what should be a five-minute drive from our hotel to the restaurant, road work has reduced a fairly long stretch of road to only one lane wide. And a narrow lane at that. A construction traffic light is in operation, allowing each direction of traffic to move through the construction zone by turns. It is a long light because it is designed to ensure that all the traffic going in one direction has cleared the construction area before it gives the green light to traffic heading in the other direction.

We wait patiently through the long light on the way to the restaurant. But things have gotten worse by the time we return. The northbound lane is backed up almost as far as the restaurant itself. We get in line. A few cars come back the other way. Very few. We creep forward.

Eventually, the light is in sight. It turns green. No one moves. A few cars from behind us pull out to the right (into the lane for oncoming traffic) and speed toward the one-lane area, hoping to make it through before the light changes again. “There must be a breakdown up ahead in our lane,” we think.

The light turns red. A few cars come through the other way. But wait a moment! Aren’t those the cars that just went by from our side? We aren’t sure.

The light turns green again. Several cars pass by from behind us, and, seeing a small break, Dan pulls out into the moving lane. Or tries to. The car coming up from behind speeds up, honks angrily, and won’t let us in. Dan mutters his opinion of which part of the anatomy best describes the driver. “Idiot,” I agree.

The light turns red. Dan pulls back into our lane so as not to block oncoming traffic and decides to walk up to the front of the line to see what’s going on. While I wait in the car, I see cars returning down the oncoming lane. One car in particular is backing down the road very quickly, angrily, barely in control. I recognize the car. It’s the same guy who cut us off earlier. “Jerk!” I say to no one in particular. I didn’t consider that my car window was open to the warm island breeze. As was his.

He screeches to a halt, pulls up even with me. “What you say?” he demands. There are two men in the car, large men. The driver has a face as round as the moon, as black as the night. His features twist with anger. “What you say?”

I am a woman alone in an open car. “You shouldn’t drive like that,” I tell him, trying to be diplomatic. “You’re angry, you make everyone around you angry, too. Try to be a little nicer.”

“Don’t you go calling me no jerk!” He is almost yelling. Who knows, maybe I’m the third person today that has told him he’s a jerk. First his girlfriend, then his boss, and now me. I don’t know about the others, but as for me, he isn’t going to let me get away with it.

I have a moment of illumination. By being angry at him, I too am making things worse. I’m making myself a worse person, and I’m making him angrier. Which will make things worse for everyone he chances upon along the way. In his life. I decide I must take a stand.

“You’re right,” I say. “I shouldn’t have said that. It was wrong of me, and I’m sorry. I should have more sympathy. But you really should try to be a little nicer. It would make things better for everybody.”

We look at each other for a moment. He nods slightly and drives off. I like to think: not quite as recklessly as before. But I’m not sure.

I like to think that just possibly there might be one fewer jerk out there in the world today.

Who knows?

It’s time to confess. I am an electricity addict….

It’s time to confess. I am an electricity addict. And I am not alone.

Having arrived early for my flight from Boston airport, the first thing I did after getting through security and going to my gate was to look for a plug. Did I need a plug? No. I didn’t *need* to use my computer, and in any case, my computer was fully charged. But I wanted to save the charge for the long flight to San Francisco. Did I *need* to use my computer on the plane? No. I am carrying a camera, an iPod with 2,699 songs on it, a book I’ve barely started, two Smithsonian magazines, and a portable CD player with not one but two complete books on CD. But I thought I *might* want to use my computer, so I wanted to save the charge. So I needed a plug. There weren’t many plugs at the gate. In fact, I found only one fourplex, two of which were used by airport kiosk equipment and one of which was being used by a young man on his computer. That left one for me. Shamelessly, I strung my wire around the back of his seat, muttering my “Sorry”s and “Excuse me”s.

Sure enough, I ran out of computer battery power on the plane. Dan was supposed to get in at the same time as me, but my plane is ten minutes early and his is an hour and twenty minutes late. So I have to wait. Good time to charge up the ol’ computer. Unlike BOS, SFO has plenty of plugs. There’s a twoplex on every structural pillar. And as I walk down the long corridor from my arrival gate to Dan’s I notice that almost every twoplex is in use by two plugs attached by snaking cords to two computers in the laps of two people sitting as close as they can to the juice. The end seat in a row, if possible. The floor if not. I begin to worry that there won’t be a plug for me.

But here at Dan’s gate nothing is happening. No one is here. I occupy a fine end seat in a comfortable, empty row. And–ah!–I am plugged in.

California

California. Gotta love it.

Yesterday I was walking on the pedestrian/ bikeway in the long park between Fell and Oak Streets, heading west toward Stanyan, which marks the border between the park I was walking in and Golden Gate Park. Approaching Stanyan, I noticed an official-looking message stenciled in white paint on the dark asphalt. It showed the silhouette of an automobile, and the text read, “DEATH MONSTERS AHEAD”.

Walking to the grocery store today, Margot and I saw a bus approaching. Up on the top of the front, where they usually put the route number and destination, this bus said, “NOWHERE IN PARTICULAR”. I did so much want to get on, but we had somewhere we had to get to. I wonder where that bus is now…

Yesterday, I bought a tablecloth. A beautiful tab…

Yesterday, I bought a tablecloth. A beautiful tablecloth with an elegant black background and pale blue and gold flowers.

I boarded the ferry for the return trip from Block Island, carefully washed the tabletop of the booth in the passenger section, and laid out the tablecloth. Laid out black plasticware cutlery, blue cups, and a bottle of red wine. Organized appetizers of aged gouda, homemade guacamole, chips and crackers, and set out a meal of lobster meat (tail and claws) with fresh-squeezed lime, and a salad of homegrown tomatoes and cucumbers and farmers-market radishes.

As Dan and I dined, the sun set in a splendor of colors, nonstop fireworks and glory that faded only slowly to deepest lingering red.

At last. Dinner at Milliways, the Restaurant at the End of the Universe. We have been there, and it is good.

I wonder where Adam is going to spend the night

Adam’s plane was scheduled to leave Boston at 4:19 and arrive in Philadelphia at 5:46, where he would board a plane to Seattle scheduled to depart at 6:15. His plane actually left the gate in Boston at 4:57 and is now estimated to arrive in Philadelphia about nine minutes after his plane to Seattle is estimated to have left.

Too much travel

It started with an odd coincidence of events. I had just finished transcribing into my kitchen calendar Dan’s schedule for the next couple of months, which involves an exceptional amount of business travel (even for him). We were unwinding with a couple of fresh-lime margaritas. And Dan was getting ready to grill the bluefish; we had bought enough for an additional person or two and then decided we’d rather not have company.

“You’ll have leftover bluefish,” he warned me solemnly. “You’ll have to remember to eat it while I’m gone.”

“I can hardly remember anything these days unless I write it down,” I moaned. My common complaint.

“Well, you’d better remember me.”

I love it when he says things like that. “Not likely,” I retorted. “You’re going to be gone too much.”

And the next thing you know, we were off and running. We could see it clearly….

“Hello,” asks the telephone caller, “Is Dan there?”

“Here?” I echo. “No way. He’s never here. Call American Airlines.”

“Hello, American Airlines? I’m looking for a Mr. Daniel Kenney.”

“Daniel Kenney? Yes, he’s booked on several of our flights this week. Just one moment, please, and we’ll connect you.”

Segue to an airplane somewhere over the North American continent. The telephone located in the back of the middle seat of a row in the middle of the plane starts to ring. Dan, in the aisle seat, says to the passenger next to him. “Could you please get that? If it’s my wife, tell her I’m not here. I’ve changed seats with someone at the back of the plane.”

The Incas

Everyone loves to love The Incas. This includes their descendants and those of their close neighbors, the Quechua peoples. Quechua is one of the two official languages of Peru (along with Spanish). In the highlands, there is a certain look to the people. Quechua blood is strong here. But even our tour guide in Cuzco – gentle, erudite Marco with his necktie and umbrella, Spanish-looking and European educated (with a degree in anthropology) described an event as “good for the Spaniards, but bad for us.” Us. Although Marco and most of the people in Cuzco are of mixed blood (I asked), it’s very clear which side they identify with. I was fiercely glad about this.

Okay. So why do we all prefer the Incas to the Spaniards? On the surface of it, the answer is obvious. The Spaniards were illiterate, intolerant bullies who arrived with their superior weapons and their European diseases to decimate a civilized culture, and thought so little of it that they melted down the brilliant Inca artwork and crafted items in silver and gold for bullion to pay their armies. They enslaved the people. They not only forbade them to practice their religion, but also made them tear down their own temples (rather than which many of the Incas preferred to commit suicide). They obliterated their culture and never even knew what they had destroyed. We value that which has disappeared, especially since the little we know of it has beauty and wisdom.

But on the other hand. The Inca empire was less than a hundred years old when the Spaniards destroyed it. All the evidence indicates that the Incas did to other, earlier civilizations exactly what the Spaniards did to theirs – obliterated religious practices; destroyed whole towns as well as temples, sometimes demolishing them stone from stone; transported entire peoples into slave labor in remote regions. The Incas destroyed a pre-Columbian and relatively advanced civilization in Equador so thoroughly, dismantling entire cities stone from stone and relocating entire populations, that had the events not happened within the living memory of some of the people met by the Spaniards, we would have no record of it at all. Like the Spaniards, the Incas ultimately extended their empire too far and, overextended, helped bring about their own downfall.

I think the main thing one can say about the Incas as opposed to the Spaniards is that they took from the peoples they conquered arts and culture, not just material wealth. They were willing to learn. Much of the art of stone-building at Ollantaytambu and other Inca sites (such as Machu Picchu and Sacsayhuaman, among others) clearly came from the Tiahuanacu people, whom they conquered. The Incas forceably relocated the Tiahuanacu stonebuilders and others to Ollantaytambu, thereby solving two problems at once. The Tiahuanacu had not wanted to join the Inca empire (as had many other groups), and because they had fought against the Incas, they had to be subdued and punished. The Ollantaytambans had also fought rather than submitting, and since they were close to home, the Incas had to keep them under control. The Incas decided that a significant structure (Incas seemed to combine monument, fortress, and temple into one concept) was needed at Ollantaytambu, and the Tiahuanacu were the people to build it.

Ollantaytambu, Sacsayhuaman, and Machu Picchu were never finished. The Inca empire lasted less than a hundred years and had only four emperors before the Spanish came. Building projects involving thousands of people over fifty years ground to a sudden halt when the smallpox swept down, ahead of the Spaniards, followed shortly by civil war. By the time the Spaniards themselves arrived, it was already over.

The other factor that keeps the Incas so alive in our hearts and spirits is the interplay of light and heaviness. It’s hard to comprehend a culture that had such a love of stone and such a mastery of its workmanship, while at the same time worshipping the sun. Yet only the dominance of both of these factors can explain the magic of the structures we find. Machu Picchu is magnificent – but it is not unique (except in how well preserved and how [relatively] accessible it is). The Incas built on the shoulders of the mountains, where they could mark and celebrate the rising and setting of the sun. Watching the sun set or rise over Machu Picchu shows clearly how inconceivable it is the Incas would have built in the dark river valleys, or on the unsubtle, exposed peaks. At the same time they built of the material of the mountains, fitting and polishing each unique stone, rejoicing in the size and power of the rocks, and working their structures right into and around the natural stone formations.

One more thing. Quechua (and perhaps even specifically Inca) culture is far from vanished in Peru. Our deeply Christian guide at the convent in Arequipa spoke not only of Christ as Love, but also of the power of the earth as manifested in certain root vegetables (long, phallic ones). The condor representing heaven, the puma representing the earth, and the serpent representing the world below the earth are all carved into the stone façade of a church on the main square in Arequipa. One of the chapels of the cathedral in Cuzco, beautifully carved of native wood, has deliciously fertile naked women carved into every armrest of every seat. Tour guides point out these features proudly. We are Catholic, they seem to be saying, but in our own way and on our own terms. The computer geek who copied my camera’s full flash card to CDROM in Cuzco paused to admire a photo of a condor in flight. Condors, we were told more than once, are the guides of the soul from this life to the next. Our guide in the Sacred Valley carried an Inca cross, the three-stepped cross representing the worlds below, on, and above the earth, and the four directions of the Inca roads out of Cuzco, the navel of the world, to all the world’s quarters. (I love this elegant symbol of the entire universe, and now have one of my own, with a jewel representing Cuzco, which means navel in Quechua, in the center.)

Adam’s museum

Today, Dan and I went to see the movie “My Architect,” which is about the architect Louis Kahn. The film was made by his (illigitimate) son Nathaniel, who knew his father very little during his life, and twenty-five years after LK died, was trying to understand just who he really was. Despite some quibbles I have with it, the film is overall excellent and very moving. I recommend it.

But that’s not why I’m writing this journal entry.

As part of this project, Nathaniel visited every building that Kahn created. This includes the Kimbell Art Museum in Fort Worth, Texas. I’ve been to the Kimbell twice. When the movie first showed sweeping shots of the museum’s beautifully lit, timelessly elegant interior, it all came flooding back to me.

The Kimbell is a gem of a museum, not only because of its architecture and light, but also because it has a small but completely first-rate collection. To quote its Web site: “The Kimbell Art Museum’s holdings range in period from antiquity to the 20th century, including masterpieces by Duccio, Fra Angelico, Mantegna, Caravaggio, El Greco, La Tour, Rubens, Velázquez, Rembrandt, Houdon, Goya, David, Monet, Cézanne, Picasso, Matisse, and Mondrian.” One or two of just about everything that any museum would give its eyeteeth to have. All displayed in perfect light, in uncrowded harmony.

The first time I visited the Kimbell, Adam was just two years old. Dan had gone off to live in Texas for several months to help in the start-up of his firm‘s then-new Dallas office, returning home only on (most) weekends. But this particular week, I had a conference to go to in Dallas myself, so I took Adam and went to live with Dan at his apartment on Turtle Creek. On this particular day we didn’t have to work, so we went to the museum.

I remember carrying two-year-old Adam through the galleries, and stopping to look at the pictures and sculptures. At each one, Adam wanted me to tell him its story. Not who painted it and when, but who is that woman in the picture, and where is she, and why is she there, and why is that man looking at her in that funny way, and what’s going to happen, and…

And so we stopped at various pictures and sculptures, and at each one I invented a story for Adam that would be as long as it needed to be so that I could really look at the object and that would incorporate elements that might draw his attention too to some of the significant aspects of the object. And so we spent a pleasant afternoon at our own pace, my two-year-old son and I, going through the Kimbell Art Museum.

Today, twenty-one-year-old Adam is working on a capstone project at Brown University. It is a hypertext Web site in which a group of people meet and go through a museum. They stop and look at various objects. The reader can click on the highlighted objects if he wishes, and can then read a story associated with the object.

Now I have to ask you: Do you think this could possibly be a coincidence?

Being where you are when you’re being there

The protagonist of many of my early fiction stories, a young man named Roderin, had the ability to Shift from one reality to another. I grew up wishing I had this talent. At heart, I didn’t want to have to inhabit the reality I was in – a characteristic that perhaps many readers (and writers) of fantasy stories share.

In the world of my bickering parents, I learned early and learned well how to get by while actually being there as little as possible. I read. When I ran out of horse stories in my branch library, I fled to the stars. When I ran out of astronomy books, I turned to fantasy and science fiction. I was light years away all the time. Alternative universes were even better.

My personal reality is a lot better now, and I don’t mind inhabiting it. Most of the time. But I can still walk down a path on a beautiful Florida campus, surrounded by grass and flowers, water vistas and gracious white buildings shining in the warm February sunshine, and feel within myself the potential to be someplace else.

Or at least, not to be here.

Not completely.

If I were Roderin, all it would take would be a focused act of will and an acceptance of a small wave of nausea that passes quickly enough. There’s always a price, after all. It’s not too bad as long as the price is not too steep.

But that’s the catch, isn’t it? For the possibility of what existence in what world in all of the heavens would I be willing to give up this world’s long-legged daughter for whose sake I am walking this campus path?

I guess I’m going to stay right here.